So decision time came around for what to do during this wonderful 3-day weekend. First I had thought of flying to the Caribbean, sitting under and umbrella and reading all sorts of feel-good-useless-books to drown out the many questions in my mind and the disturbing issues that I've face this week. Then I thought of simply staying at home in my bed, watching movies and blocking out life for a bit. But God had other plans. God truly works in mysterious ways because today as I was shutting down my inbox at work, the last email I read was from a co-worker who plans to go to Joplin, MO this weekend to help out with the disaster relief effort. I could feel God's still, small voice in my ear urging me to think of others instead of myself. In fact, out of all my goals, helping others selflessly has received the greatest shaft. I hesitated, almost walked down the stairs and out the door. I was tired, irritated and felt on the verge of tears after my last fax to Child Protective Services. But it is not written "my will be done" but rather "God's will be done."
My co-worker was so helpful, providing me a number for a local church in Joplin that is organizing volunteers to help those in need. Armed with a post-it note and a scribbled phone number, I headed home to call. I still felt doubt. The television and my comfy bed was calling for a long, relaxing weekend of doing absolutely n-o-t-h-i-n-g. The woman who answered my call was so kind and amazingly positive given the devastation. She promptly arranged accommodations for myself and Cody, offered us 3 meals a day and even took into account what we would like to do as volunteers. Amazing.
|"Rejoice in the Lord always and again I'll say 'Rejoice!'."|
So tomorrow, Sunday and Monday, I will put aside my wants, doubts, goals and thoughts and instead focus on others in much greater need. I will rejoice that the Lord saved my home from destruction. I will rejoice that I am physically capable of helping others. I will rejoice that is using me to brings His joy to others. Rejoice in the Lord always!